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It’s your choice; it is entirely up to you

I  know you do not wish to

    That life is so painful.

    But you should know

    Every second you heart beats

    It is another second of life.

    You are living

-

    Whether you choose to pursue your tumultuous endeavor

    I know you think it is what is right

    But it is not.

    Every second you spend contemplating

    Nail biting, picking your skin, hurting yourself

    It is another reason to live.

    And I know each smile of well concealed self loathe

    Is really that worn out pattern of

    ‘I hate myself’ and ‘I can’t do this’

-

    And every second in the big comfy chair is just another excuse

    To do an extensive jaded ‘about me’.

    But there is such a thing as a cycle

    Whether it be scientific or metaphorical; it is possible to break.

    You’re just like me

    No, not physically but emotionally

    We hate ourselves so much that death becomes us

    Death is what we unitentionally strive for.

We are kindred spirits; so sensitive it hurts

our souls are slowly waned from years of self deprecation

-

We are the unlucky ones

cursed with empathy that runs longer than any river

It’s a crazy cycle; my doctor said I was ‘stupid’ to do something so impulsive

    He said I had so much life

    It would be rude of me to end my life because I “couldn’t deal”

    If you feel the need to

    Do what you feel but reconsider

    If you do

    You will be another statistic.

    Is that the impression you wish to make?

     

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 I've been meaning to do another poem and i felt the need to do it. There's always a voice in my head telling me that i can't do anything. I guess, I sort of start falling for it. But I had a conversation with a friend and we were discussing suicide and I just figured hey, why not "journal" my thoughts? 
So here I am. As most of you know, the ones that follow me, that a few months back i had a nervous breakdown and then a sort of reaction to it that caused another breakdown. Im still "recovering from it". Now please take it from me in no way am i attempting to glamorize a mental illness such as depression. What i am simply trying to do is express myself as a form of art therapy? Its not at all "adorable" or "hot" to have self mutilation scars on you- but its not exactly disgusting. Angry geek girl 
I have frequent bouts of anxiety and i have panic attacks a lot more than i did in high school. Having a mental illness is not something you should strive for. To be sick? is that what you want? Do you have any clue what it feels like to be utterally and completely depressed? To juggle a "social" life and make friends and get assignments done? Its's hard. So, I don't think this is a depressing poem? 
well, tell me what you think!  and i am so sorry if i gave off the impression that no one would know what i feel because i'm sure a LOT of people know what it feels like. So I hope you all have a good day/night wherever you are!   Thanks for everything!
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so i was just crusing on the tamakyo tag on tumblr and i found a post about tamakyo week- a new thing they're starting thats being planned on september 14th to the 20th!!!
if you're interested here's the link! (x)
you guys know i gotta join this tamakyo is everythinggg
  • Mood: Peaceful
  • Reading: love tutors
  • Watching: criminal minds season 5 again
  • Eating: cookies
so i was just crusing on the tamakyo tag on tumblr and i found a post about tamakyo week- a new thing they're starting thats being planned on september 14th to the 20th!!!
if you're interested here's the link! (x)
you guys know i gotta join this tamakyo is everythinggg
  • Mood: Peaceful
  • Reading: love tutors
  • Watching: criminal minds season 5 again
  • Eating: cookies

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:bulletgreen:Yaoi. Junjou Romantica. Hetalia. Loveless. Kuroshitsuji. Ouran. FMA. Gravitation. Kyo Kara Moah! Death Note. are my life.
:bulletgreen: Glee. Larry Stylinson. Harry Potter. X-men as well.

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well wait. i have many otp's.

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Hetalia
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Junjou Romantica
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Kuroshitsuji
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Loveless
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Gravitation
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FMA
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Death Note
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